anxiety, clinical depression, depression, meds, poetry, rhyme
I’m currently sitting here in my under-things. The house is too hot and no one in the Northeast of England has air conditioning (including me) but that’s not really the reason… really, the reason I’m sat here, half-dressed, is because I can’t be bothered to put the rest of my clothes on.
Or do much else.
However, when I woke up this morning (because I just could not do any more sleeping–and may I just say, 12 hours of sleep is ludicrous, both in general, and in the specific) and went to lie down on the couch (I shit you not) this little bastardization of, “Green Eggs and Ham” was bouncing around inside my brain. As far as I know, in spite of all the rip-offs of that poem in the world, this one is mine:
I do not like this wonky brain,
I do not like it in the rain,
I do not like it in the sun;
It is not fun for anyone.
I do not like it with the meds,
They make me less fun in the beds.
I like it even less without,
Without, I rant and cry and shout.
I do not like this panic attack,
It makes me tend to over-snack,
I do not like this mood that lags,
I do not like these crying jags.
I do not like these sleepless nights,
But the sleepful ones just don’t feel right.
I do not like my crazy brain,
I wish that I could just be sane.
And there you have it. What I woke up feeling like, today… while off my meds.